Today, my fave blog got shut down..why..did i do something? did the guy get overly overwhelmed? did something happen? i don’t know, but this is crazy. Whatever, i’ll live..anyway. just wanted to share that today i feel more and more separated from one of the most important people in my life. i don’t like it, but it doesn’t feel wrong either. Im beginning to hate emotion, and myself, and my life, and my problems. Nowadays i don’t even remember what my problems are – is that normal? and i feel brainwashed into beleiving that followers of islam are all murderers and crazy nuts. I mean really, there’s no way that the qu’ran justifies the massacre of any muslim not following the regulations of islam, or the murder of any-non islamic human being. If it doesn’t, then why are the world’s worst terrorists proud muslims…it doesn’t make sense, and technically it really does represent the horror of this religion…whatever. i don’t really care, i respect everyone and their beleifs, no matter how stupid and idiotic they may be.
you offer a lot to consider. wonder why the guy stopped bloggin. can you search your comments and try to send him an email instead? you feel ugh bout that prolly cuz it was a human connection you counted on. those matter. losing those isn’t just ‘whatever’..it’s cause to pause and comment about it like you did…and be sad and feel down as you do….let yourself feel that. of course you live but life w/o connection is robotic. you know that. you wrote those feelings cuz of that. look at how you dive into something even more deep…your sense of faith….it’s okay to question everything, how else will you find a truth you can lean on and not have pulled out from under you….keep questioning…keep feeling…even when it hurts…those moments are never just ‘whatevers’ and no one real would ever tell you you’re making a big deal out of it…those moments matter. be sad…keep questioning…try to loop back w/ that blogger to see whatz up. (could be he’s shifting to a self hosted blog?)….keep feeling. you are real and genuine….and worthy and needed….and keep bloggin.
peace to you, tre