Life

My ability to make use of time = horrible, my ability to stay focused = horrible, my ability to complete my to-do lists – horrible….ay life is hard.

A big mess

Oh wow…life is such a mess no? Atleast in my case – yes! So many things to do, no time, don’t know where to start…when to start, how to start. I’ve been breaking my morals – crumbling them peice by peice. Morning routine – broken, commitment to temple – broken, manual of self unfoldment – broken. I need to tie things together cleverly. What would i do if i wasn’t afraid?….everything - i’ve once created in my mind. Okay, got to research. Write later.

sru

Life

Ahh. have a gigantic to do list to do, practiced softball today w. some rolled up material used on cabinets and a tennis ball w. my lil bro and dad. Have to find an aluminum bat…somewhere…and a softball. God, Im not THAT bad..ok, yes i am. But i hit 5 out of 10 balls, not bad right? anyway, busted my lip while playing as well, talk about bad pitching. Hope tom. in gym isn;t that horrible…whatever, i dont really care anymore. Let life toss me here and there, drag me down pitless wells of shame, horror, sadness, whatever. Its the usual thing isn;t it?  No problem, i’ll take it. I think CAC;s next 2 events just might be success. What do you think? have to sleep soon, see you later.

Life

o my goodness, do you believe my life? this is outrageously ridiculous! abosulote hypocrasy! What the freak?! I mean, really, for P.E. we were given three choices right? tennis,  badminton, or softball. I’ve been playing badminton for like 9 years, tennis for 3 and softball – not even a SINGLE day in my life! and then, the stupid seniors all fill up tennis, the two guys in front of me got the two last seats for badminton! and i was stuck w/ softball? aaah, for the next 9 weeks. Ughhhh! I dont know how to pitch, bat, catch -ANYTHING. this is soo retarded, how am i going to do this? great, now i’m stuck spending my time trying to hit a plastic ball w a plastic bat at home instead of tennis or basketball. omg i hate this to death. softball should go die. aagh

Shocks

aah….another blow of shocks. How wonderful eh? yeah, I just got kicked out of school, literally….oh wow. I found out yesterday, and today i was actually pretty jolly as i felt i had overcomed a challenge because my dad helped me out alot as to how to deal w/ my emotions. Got to find some1 to take my place as president in the club, got to propose channelone asap. Got to get everything done and good by tomm. so i’ll hand it over by fri. cuz monday might be my last. Idk. I really don’t want to move in the middle. I mean really. this is ridiculous. Finals, semester, my classes, my credits. AAH. I think i already found some1 to be president but he seems hesitant. But i think he’s perfect. I just need to tell him a few tips here and there, and he’ll fall in love with what he’s about to become. I really don’t want to give him a partner, i see misforune ahead if i do such. one person, no hassles, no jealous, no this or that. Just one vision, one dream, one passion being brought to life through many. thats good enough for now. Those who exploit their resources, they’re allowed to exploit it even more, but those who actually make use of their resources, get robbed of them…ay how strange…whatever, i can either rebel or i can turn into buddha. I’ll take buddha because i really don’t feel like walking in circles.